What is Good?

I have tried writing down my thoughts and feelings from yesterday, but my fingers are sluggish. Suffice it to say that as yesterday was Good Friday, I was reminded how not good I am, wallowing in self-pity, pride and anger. Then I was thrown to my knees as I was brought to remember how very good Jesus is. I must humbly appeal to these two songs to summarize for me:

"I Will Not Walk Away"
~Michael Card

I made the Man of Sorrows sorry
By all my foolish lies
I drove the nails, I raised the cross
I was the reason that He died

Utterly unfaithful then,
I added anger to my sin
In a world already dark to me
I closed my eyes and would not see

So I may kick and I may scream
Say many things I do not mean
Hold blindly to what is not true
But I will not walk away from You.

Just why I choose to disobey
I simply cannot tell
Why I blame You when I rebel
And weep for wounds I give myself

Then screaming at an empty sky
I search for You and wonder why
Though I cause You so much agony
You refuse to walk away from me

Don’t read me pointless poems, friend
Don’t diagnose, don’t condescend
Though you may be right be disagree
I need someone to weep with me

I made the Man of Sorrows sorry
By all my foolish lies
I drove the nails, I raised the cross
I was the reason that He died


So I may kick and I may scream
Say many things I do not mean
Hold blindly to what is not true
But I will not walk away from You

"How Deep the Father's Love"
~Stuart Townend

How deep the Father's love for us,
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure

How great the pain of searing loss,
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One,
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the Man upon a cross,
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocking voice,
Call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom